Blessed

Recently I had one of those days; you know, the ones where everything just seems to NOT go your way. Work was overwhelming, my mind was wandering all over the place, and I just couldn’t seem to focus. I felt like screaming at the world to just stop for a minute and give me a chance to breathe. Just when I felt like I was going to burst, I drove to Peet's Coffee (for may latest favorite, iced soy chai), mainly to clear my mind. As I was driving, I was talking to a friend of mine (and updating my Twitter :), and they told me how blessed I was. My initial thought was, “blessed…are you kidding me? My life is out of control”. And then I began to reflect on all the things God has done in my life, and to be honest, I then felt a bit guilty. Recently, I’ve been living out my dream and here I am complaining- shame on me!

Less than a year ago I had lost the love of my life, my house was almost in foreclosure, and on a regular basis I found myself curled up into a ball crying out to God. Now, when I stop and see where I am today, I am amazed. I have an incredible job at The Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising, I live with my sister (and best friend) and have people coming up to me on a regular basis saying they are “fans” of mine. All of this just blows me away, my life has been flipped upside-down in the past year and it’s humbling and exciting to be on this journey.

I recently read that we should, “consider it pure joy whenever we face trials, because that testing develops perseverance”. My goal for each day is simply to remember that I’m here on earth for a bigger purpose, and it’s not about me. I was having a conversation with my manager recently regarding the impact that all of us as individuals have here on earth. He had just returned from his second trip to Haiti, and after hearing the stories of all that is happening down there, I’m moved to do more with my life. I have to count my blessings and do whatever I can to show love to the hurting.

The next time I feel down or alone I hope I stop to realize how truly blessed I am.

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